I’m gonna be honest today. The last few weeks for me have been hard. Not hard as in anything big or drastic has happened that has caused distress. In general, everything is great. I’m healthy, breathing, alive, and have exactly what I need. But on the contrary, my to do list piled up, I took on way more than I could handle, I began worrying deep down in my heart about things of life- finances, work, ministry, family, etc. All last week my Husband and I kept getting into little arguments over the stupidest things, literally. Just to give you an example, I got mad because my Husband wanted me to turn the music down in the car one night. I’m not making that up.
But the problem wasn’t all these tiny little stressors- the problem was with something much deeper down in my heart. This deep seeded thing had been masked with all the little things, being shoved down to the point where I exploded. That night in the car, what could have been a simple thing, turned into a massive argument where all the worries and troubles that I had been shoving down came to one giant crescendo of tears and frustration unfortunately slung straight at my Husband. We were able to talk it out and ultimately found a resolution but I discovered something the next day.
I was feeling so convicted about my behavior and in prayer had asked, “God, what is going on with me? Please help me”. I opened up the Word to Luke 10:38-42 and my heart was captured.
Luke 10:38-42 is this:
Now it happened as they went that He entered a certain village; and a certain woman named Martha welcomed Him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at Jesus’ feet and heard His word. But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, “Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me.”
And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.”
The last few weeks that is exactly what was going on with me. I was being Martha. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not downgrading Martha at all. She was serving and working hard but the problem was her attitude and heart behind it. She was worried, frustrated. Martha was probably hustling around the kitchen, trying to make sure everyone else was taken care of. She had probably been hard at work all day preparing things and was tired physically and emotionally. Everything had piled up at once and she asks Jesus in that frustration “Lord, do you not care…”.
So many times I am exactly this way, and I know so many others out there are too. We let things pile up and don’t realize that these trivial, little things are actually taking a much larger toll on our hearts. We can’t serve well, if we aren’t resting well.
Mary in this passage of scripture is the example. It said that she was sitting at Jesus’s feet and was hearing His word. Mary was in awe of her King and enamored by His presence, soaking in every chance she got. She was not worried or troubled. Jesus tells Martha that Mary has chosen one thing. One thing, that is needed above everything else.
“One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that will I seek after:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
and to inquire in his temple”
The Message translates this verse at the end stating ” I will study at His feet” while the New Living Translation talks of “meditating in His temple”. How easy it is to get swept up in the everyday troubles and worries of life , while not resting in Him.
God tells us clearly that the only thing we need to do is dwell in Him, sit at His feet, listen to His Word, and meditate in His temple. Luke 8:35 describes a man who had been healed from demons, who “was sitting at Jesus’ feet, fully clothed and perfectly sane…”.
How beautiful it is to sit at the feet of our Savior and be perfectly still in His promises. Whatever is building up in your heart, be it worry or stress, before it boils over and you lash out- go sit at Jesus’ feet. Cry out to Him and dwell in His house. He has an open seat waiting for you. He longs to give you a place at His feet and will refresh you, so you can walk with confidence that you can do everything He has called you to do without be weary or heavy burdened (Matthew 11:28-30).
Rest. Sit. Dwell. Repeat.
In Him and for His glory,