Good evening readers and bloggers. It seems that I can’t stay on top of posting new blog posts but life right now is great but busy.
A few weeks ago I kind of hit this time of feeling like I was just going through the motions. Does that ever happen to you? Where your to do list is about as long as your arm and you aren’t really enjoying any of what you are doing. Yeah, that happened and I didn’t like it.
Especially when spending time with God is on that to do list. The last thing I want is to go through the motions and not really take the time to sit with the Lord and be with Him. He deserves every second of my time, and though I was reading His Word in the morning, I wasn’t really taking the time to listen or be still. After about a week of this, it began to take it’s toll on my heart.
Ministry, work, and helping others as I was so accustomed to doing didn’t seem enjoyable. During that week, going to church and ministering to others felt cumbersome and difficult. I honestly felt completely burnt out. And the thing was I wasn’t doing nearly as much as some of my other brothers and sisters in Christ are doing for the Gospel. The weariness settled in my heart and I quietly thought, “maybe I’m not cut out for all this?” but as immediately as that lie from the enemy flashed through my mind, the truth of God’s word and the Holy Spirit comforting me came to save the day a little while later.
Instead of just breezing through the Word that morning, I made it my goal to get into the Word during my lunch break that day, instead of being on my phone like I had been doing. As I opened His word and began to journal and read, I sensed Him whispering to my heavy burdened soul “You can’t do my work, if you aren’t resting in Me“. As my heart took this in, I immediately felt as if a reconnection happened right through my worn out soul.
I was reminded of John 15:5 that says “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in me, and I in Him, bears much fruit; for without me you can do nothing ”
I had not been abiding in the true vine. God. The One who can sustain my soul and strengthen me to bear fruit and do the tasks with which He has given me.
Don’t ever think for a second that the job you are in, the school you attend, the classes you are in, the places you go, or your church are all just coincidence and have nothing to do with God’s plan. God has uniquely placed us where we are so that He can use us, as mundane as the moment may seem sometimes. There may be a friend at church, a classmate, or a co-worker that God wants to use you to minister to or encourage. I had completely forgotten this – that God is in the midst of everything I am currently doing.
I was not ABIDING. RESTING. BEING STILL. No wonder I felt like I couldn’t do anything and I was weary doing it, because apart from God I couldn’t.
After this reconnection with God, I repented of my great lack of being still and abiding in the Father and have since felt greatly reconnected to the Father, and life’s tasks don’t feel as cumbersome but now I know that this is something I must actively defend against. I’m learning that we have an enemy (Satan or the devil) who will never stop using the same old tactics time after time to get us (especially Christians) tripped up, tired, and confused. But I also know that we have the weapons to fight him back. ( I may write a post of this particular topic). Therefore, I will strive to abide in God while allowing Him to abide in me fully, because without Him… I am nothing.
Are you weary today? Do you feel like you are going through the motions, not really enjoying life? Pray and ask God to refresh your heart today, and help you to abide in Him. I promise that He will. For our God is faithful.
“I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand I will not be shaken”
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